There have been many moments over the last few weeks where I have wanted to post something. Thoughts have come into my head that I have wanted to put on paper and share with the universe, but I have not been able to necessarily sit down, log onto the internet and type. A tape recorder is desperately needed!
A quick thought I'll share as I listen to the sounds of the surf outside my window.
I wish that I could capture the feeling of love surrounding you. If we could capture this and pull it out of our "perfume" bottles whenever we needed an extra hug, life would be "marvelous". We would have no self-doubt, because those thoughts would be quickly set aside by the feelings of love and support.
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The above post was created the last week of June 2007 when I was enjoying an evening of "Heather". I left Samantha with her very willing god-mom and went off on my own. My computer battery died mid-post, as it has been doing lately, and I was so frustrated, I haven't been back since.
Let me say that the next morning I went shopping at a very beautiful well center that a friend of mine has created and found my perfume bottle. I filled it with the sea air, the sound of the ocean, the wishes and voices of friends and an unnamed emotion that only Santa Cruz can provide for a person. My bottle is hanging from my vehicles rear-view window, reminding me of capturing love.
Now to add few more topics...
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Thursday, June 7, 2007
Priorities 2
In looking at my new heading, I think it will change as I identify more accurately what each of those roles is. My responsibilities are almost heavy at times with duties for my family and those I work with and meet. I need to be sure I remove the "heaviness" from those responsibilities and do my best at being who I am, owning my life. I don't know if this last post makes any sense. I'll be able to delve into this more later as again, I'm past the deadline I gave myself.
Priorities
I had an interesting conversation with my husband last night. I have been lacking energy lately and he's called me on it. I seem to be blah at work and at home. I have been feeling it myself and THOUGHT I was doing a good job of hiding it. Guess you can't hide from somebody who's lived with you daily for over 14 years. I think it's because when I put energy into my work, I don't have it left for home, and when I put it in at home, I don't have it left for work. So then I start feeling like I can't do anything. Hence the reason for this website. So I can own things and do something about it.
By the way, I didn't start exercising the next morning (from my post on exercise) but I have done it a couple of times since - and it's been nice. I actually had one morning where I changed from "work" clothes to "workout" clothes and back and forth a couple of times before I actually left at 5 a.m. That's what I go through, the back and forth of what is most important and I'm tending to get it wrong these days. You'd also think my work and workout clothes should be the same since I own a gym. :)
Got a little off subject, there. Anyway, my husband said, "I am a husband, dad, musician and surfer. That is all I am. I don't label myself with my job. The priorities of what I do and think about each day are about those things. Nothing else." I don't think I can be quite that simple with my thinking. I'm too much of a headcase for that. But I can limit the amount of hats I wear and ensure that anything I take on falls under one of those hats. Then I won't be spreading myself too thin. I also will have a better sense of who I am, what is important to me and what I should be doing each day.
You'll notice, I've changed my heading just a little bit. As a business owner, I will have certain things I need to do. Everything I do, should come back to being a healthy choice for myself first. Then that in turn, will help me be the best wife I can be; which will then turn into good mommy skills, including being the best example I can be of a woman to my daughter.
Another thing that is lacking is my identity with my job lately. I got started with Curves for a number of reasons. I already have gotten backlogged with paperwork and have lost my oomph. Everyone around me knew this would happen. Balance is the answer (who would have thought?). I enjoy the shift work, but can't do it well when I know everything else needs to happen as well. I'm looking forward to making some more employee picks, so I can do some bigger things and enjoy the shift work when I can.
Well, I gave myself a limit of finishing this by 2:30. That is now the time. So more on all of these later, because I still have to change my heading to reflect only the top most priorities in my life.
h
By the way, I didn't start exercising the next morning (from my post on exercise) but I have done it a couple of times since - and it's been nice. I actually had one morning where I changed from "work" clothes to "workout" clothes and back and forth a couple of times before I actually left at 5 a.m. That's what I go through, the back and forth of what is most important and I'm tending to get it wrong these days. You'd also think my work and workout clothes should be the same since I own a gym. :)
Got a little off subject, there. Anyway, my husband said, "I am a husband, dad, musician and surfer. That is all I am. I don't label myself with my job. The priorities of what I do and think about each day are about those things. Nothing else." I don't think I can be quite that simple with my thinking. I'm too much of a headcase for that. But I can limit the amount of hats I wear and ensure that anything I take on falls under one of those hats. Then I won't be spreading myself too thin. I also will have a better sense of who I am, what is important to me and what I should be doing each day.
You'll notice, I've changed my heading just a little bit. As a business owner, I will have certain things I need to do. Everything I do, should come back to being a healthy choice for myself first. Then that in turn, will help me be the best wife I can be; which will then turn into good mommy skills, including being the best example I can be of a woman to my daughter.
Another thing that is lacking is my identity with my job lately. I got started with Curves for a number of reasons. I already have gotten backlogged with paperwork and have lost my oomph. Everyone around me knew this would happen. Balance is the answer (who would have thought?). I enjoy the shift work, but can't do it well when I know everything else needs to happen as well. I'm looking forward to making some more employee picks, so I can do some bigger things and enjoy the shift work when I can.
Well, I gave myself a limit of finishing this by 2:30. That is now the time. So more on all of these later, because I still have to change my heading to reflect only the top most priorities in my life.
h
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